I Heart Prineville!

God Loves Prineville. So many amazing things happened this saturday, the 24th of January! God showed up in so many amazing ways and it blessed me to see Him blessing the socks of that city. Around 650-700 people came to the concert that night and nearly 80 recieved Christ! It was awesome... During the serving time, I know of at least 5 people that were lead to the Lord which is also really cool! I know I had fun that day and so did everyone else I talked to. God truly started something in Prineville that I know is not finished. I am excited to see the churches grow and cultivate the seeds of unity that were planted! All in all I can say that I am so pleased with the event and I know that to many people it was more than just an event. Salvation is here.
Here are some pictures from the day! (They are in backwards order, from evening to morning)

Andrea made a sign... and it was awesome :)


Ok, so here are the friendly security guards...

And here are the pissed off ones...

Brad and Seth

The Girls!

I see you.... mwah ha ha!


Stacia warming her hands on the chicken thingy at Rays... :)

Our group that went out on Adopt-a-Block

So we met this guy named Art who had a dog names Shadey, and the dog had a binkie, yep!

Andrea! yay!

Mykala, my sista...
Seth with an overly large smile.... ?

Lisa and Brittany

The Volunteers

Brittany and Jess
And lastly, my Backporch coffee and myself...glorious
I Heart Prineville!


I Heart Prineville!
So last week we headed to Prineville to hand out tickets for the event this next weekend. It was super fun :) Here is Tim being hardcore
And the rest of us nor being hardcore, except Tim, of course :)
Tim being a nun...
Taryn and all her coolness!
A cool shot from the back seat...
Taryn :)
Damon... he was very happy.
Taryn found a cool book with 3D glasses, yep...
And, last but not least... Dustin and his serious, non-smiling face.
So, after all of the planning and prayer that has gone into this event, I can say with confidence and faith that I know God is going to move in the city of Prinville. I know He will. I am so excited to see what happens and I will be posting pictures next week and letting you all know what God does.... all I can say is- WATCH OUT PRINEVILLE!


His Presence.

Just three short days ago I was completely dissatisfied. I felt as though I had failed. I felt that I was no longer good enough to be called a child of God. I had lost my hope. Pastor Ken has declared that this year is going to be the year of New Hope... new hope in God and the promises He has for us. I will admit that I most certainly didn't feel this way and hadn't felt that way up until Tuesday morning. If you read my last post I am pretty sure you could tell from my tone that I wasn't a happy camper... Thankfully Jesus had a plan, like always. As soon as I posted my blog, I almost instantly had a comment from someone named Thankful Paul. I will admit it kinda freaked me out a little because my blog had only been posted for less than a minute before the comment popped up and I don't even know if you could have read it in that amount of time, AND it was from someone that I didn't even know. The comment said as follows: "After all this, there is only one thing to say: Have reverence for God, and obey His commands, because this is all that we were created for. Ecclesiastes 12:13" I sat staring at my computer monitor in complete shock. How and where and why had this person said this to me? So I looked up the verse and it said pretty much the same thing the Thankful Paul had written, "The end of the matter; all has been heard. Fear God and keep His commandments, for this is the whole duty of man." Ecc. 12:13. I mulled over this scripture over and over to try and figure out exactly what God was trying to say to me, personally. How did this apply to me? GET READY!!! I am about to share with you what God has done over the last three days and it might get kinda long, because there was a lot, but oh well... !
Ecclesiastes 5:1-7, 12:13-14
"Guard your steps when you go to the house of God. To draw near to listen is better than to offer the sacrifice of fools, for they do not know that they are doing evil. Be not rash with your mouth, nor let your heart be hasty to utter a word before God, for God is in heaven and you are on earth. Therefore let you words be few. For a dream comes with much business, and a fool's voice with many words. When you vow a vow to God, do not delay paying it, for he has no pleasure in fools. Pay what you vow. It is better that you should not vow than that you should vow and not pay. Let not your mouth lead you into sin, and do not say before the messenger that it was a mistake. Why should God be angry at your voice and destroy the work of your hands? For when dreams increase and words grow many, there is vanity; but God is the one you must fear... The end of the matter; all has been heard. Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the whole duty of man. For God will bring every deed into judgement, with every secret thing, whether good or evil."
  1. Guard my steps- Every step I take on this journey I have to guard and fight for. When the enemy comes to take back ground, I cannot just let him.
  2. Listen- I can do so much and get "busy" in the presence of God but sometimes, he just wants me to listen, with my ears and my heart. So often I rush into the presence of God, tell him what I need, and then leave. I cannot imagine what that feel like to God... God forgive me for doing this.
  3. Pay the vow I vowed- If I commit to do something for God, I cannot wait to do it, I cant delay.
  4. Dreams bring business and vanity- The wrong kinds of dreams, unrealistic and selfish ones, will only bring vanity into my life. I have to lay them down.
  5. Fear God Only.
  6. God sees EVERYTHING- Every secret thing (whether good or evil) will be exposed and judged.

The rest of this is straight out of my journal from devotions and my quiet time with Jesus... The Holy Spirit was pushing me out into new depths with God than ever before, and the whole time, Jesus' love was just pouring out, but so also was discipline. I'm putting myself out there right now, so I hope God speaks to you through this, because He sure did to me.


Genesis 15:5-6: And He brought him outside (talking of Abram) and said, "Look toward heaven, and number the stars, if you are able to number them." Then He said to him, "So shall your offspring be." And he believed the Lord, and He counted it to him as righteousness.

  • It's easy to not believe in myself the way God does. The enemy would love to tell me that I wont be effective in God's kingdom, that I wont change the world with my life. But here I see that God promises that my fruit will be more than the stars in the sky. Abram didn't have his son, yet... he had to choose to wait on God, then the promise would come.

Luke 6:20-23: And He (Jesus) lifted His eyes on His disciples and said: Blessed are you who are poor, for yours is the kingdom of God. Blessed are you who are hungry now, for you shall be satisfied. Blessed are you who weep now, for you shall laugh. Blessed are you when people hate you and when they exclude you and revile you and spurn your name as evil, on account of the Son of Man! Rejoice on that day, and leap for joy, for behold, your reward is great in heaven; for so their father did to the prophets."

  • I am Blessed when I am these things. It sounds kind of opposite. If I were to look through the world, these would be bad... but, when I look through the Holy Spirit, these are good. These verses show me that it is OK, and even expected, that I be poor, hungry, sorrowful, and rejected.
  • God thank you for these verses. Help me remember them in my heart when I would want to have a bad attitude about a situation in my life. Thank you for your promises!

Luke 6:32-36: If you love those who love you, what benefit is that to you? For even sinners love those who love them. And if you do good to those who do good to you, what benefit is that to you? For even sinner do the same. And if you lend to those from whom you expect to receive, what credit is that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners, to get back the same amount. But love your enemies, and do good, lend, expecting nothing in return, and your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, for He is kind to the ungrateful and the evil. Be merciful, even as your Father is merciful.

  • What is the difference between me and the "sinner" in these verses? Do I love the unloved and unloving, do I do good to those who don't deserve it, do I give to those who have nothing to give back? God loves me, has good for me, and freely gives to me - so do I do this for other as well? Not always... a lot of the times I will make a decision based on selfishness.
  • God is challenging me to love, do good to, give to at least one person everyday who cant give back and/or doesn't deserve it. He has called me to not go through one day without doing this for, at the very minimum, one person.
  • God thank you that you don't repay me as my sins deserve, but you see me through Jesus. I pray you would help me be someone who loves recklessly and unconditionally. Take out any roots of selfishness in my life and show me how to love the way you do. Help me remember that one person everyday, and point them out specifically to me. Help me step out of my comfort zone in faith and obedience. I love you so much Jesus - I praise you! Thank you that you are continuing the good work you started in me.

Luke 6:47-49: Everyone who comes to me (Jesus) and hears my words and does them, I will show you what he is like: he is like a man building a house, who dug deep and laid the foundation on a rock. And when a flood arose, the stream broke against that house and could not shake it, because it had been well built. But the one who heard and does not do them is like a man who built a house on the ground without a foundation. When the stream broke against it, immediately it fell, and the ruin of that house was great. God is calling me to dig deep and quit trying to lay foundation on unsolid ground, and broken pieces of my "try's" from the past. It's not about appearing to be holy, but actually living holy, in the secret place with God.

  • God I pray that you would help me go deep! No more surface level crap anymore! I pray against any strong hold Satan is trying to set up in my life, and I command you to leave! I am a child of God. I call forth a pure and undivided heart and spirit, not by my own strength but by the power of the Living God! God I am ready to commit. Help me not get prideful in thinking that I have "arrived", because I certainly haven't. God I need your help to do all of this. Thank you for speaking to me. I love you with all of my heart. I am excited to see what you are going to be doing, in Jesus' name... AMEN!


Genesis 18:10-15: The Lord said, "I will surely return to you about this time next year, and Sarah your wife shall have a son." And Sarah was listening at the tent door behind him. Now Abraham and Sarah were old, advanced in years. The way of women had ceased to be with Sarah. So Sarah laughed to herself, saying, "After I am worn out, and my lord is old, shall I have pleasure?" The Lord said to Abraham, "Why did Sarah laugh and say, 'Shall I indeed bear a child, now that I am old?' Is anything too hard (wonderful) for the Lord? At the appointed time I will return to you, about this time next year, and Sarah shall have a son." But Sarah denied it, saying, "I did not laugh," for she was afraid. He said, "No, but you did laugh."

  • God has big plans for Abraham and Sarah. He tells them point-blank "You will have a son." But because of circumstances and fear, Sarah laughs at the thought of it. Her faith that God could do it was severely lacking.
  • Do I do this to God? Do I take His word or promises lightly? God is absolutely serious and excited about what He has for me. Whom have I chosen to believe?
  • God I repent for anytime that I have shrugged off something you spoke to me. Forgive me Jesus. I call forth faith to rise up in my life. I speak to fear and pride and command you to leave, now, in the name of Jesus. Help me hear your voice God. Give me ears to hear and a heart to obey.

Psalm 3:3-4: But you, O Lord, are a shield about me, my glory, and the lifter of my head. I cried to the Lord, and He answered me from His holy hill.


Genesis 21:15-20a: When the water in the skin was gone, she put the child under one of the bushes. Then she went and say down opposite to him a good way off, about the distance of a bow shot, for she said, "Let me not look on the death of a child." And as she sat opposite him, she lifted up her voice and wept. And God heard the voice of the boy, and the angel of God called to Hagar from heaven and said to her, "What troubles you Hagar? Fear not, for God has heard the voice of the boy where he is. Up! Lift up the boy, and hold him fast with your hand, for I will make him into a great nation." Then God opened her eyes, and she saw a well of water. And she went and filled the skin with water and gave the boy a drink. And was with the boy, as he grew up.

  • The boy is like God's word and his promise in my life. Hagar looses hope in the life of the boy when circumstances tell her he will die. I, in the same way, have easily given up on words and promises from God when things get rough, or when I see them through my flesh.
  • God I pray that I would start seeing things in the spiritual realm, not with my physical eyes but with the eyes of my spirit. God forgive me for anytime that I missed the mark because I lost hope and gave up. God give me perseverance... I love you Jesus.

Genesis 22:2: He said, "Take you son, your only son Isaac whom you love, and go to the land of Moriah, and offer him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains of which I shall tell you."

  • God is calling me to lay down and sacrifice the thing I place before him. What is that God? My pride, putting my worth in my self image, and people pleasing.
  • God I gladly lay down these things, I ask you to take them from me.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Just going over these things, while I have typed them out, God has spoken to me even more than what I journaled on... This week has been so humbling and God has pointed out some major things in my life that I need to change. I haven't been living "hot" for God, only lukewarm, and that's why it hasn't been working. I felt like I was only going through the motions each day, and nothing more. My joy, growth, and satisfaction in life is not going to come from Cascade Life Commission, my friends, or even just myself. The only thing that will truly satisfy me is Jesus Christ, and that's what I realized this week. I had thought that I knew this all along, but I only knew it in my head, and I wasn't actually living it out. God has really called me forth to be not just a Kingdom talker, but a Kingdom walker... walking out each day, knowing that I am not perfect and that there is still plenty for me to learn and experience and grow in. Walking out each day with the intent of Jesus Christ increasing and me decreasing. Walking out each day relying on the grace of God and not my own strength. Walking out each day to carry my cross. There is so much more I wish I could figure out how to say to you, but you are probably thankful that I'm not because this post is so freakin' long... but in the end, I guess this one verse sums up what God has shown me this week, and it was from today's reading:

And Jesus said to all, "If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me

Luke 9:23

With the grace of God,

Still Running,



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I don't know!!! Wow, it is only the first day back in CLC and we haven't even had any class time or anything, and I feel completely just... oh, I don't even know the word for what I feel. It's not bad but its not really good either... (?) I just need to step it up... that's all I know! I feel semi-dissappointed with myself but I have no idea why... and I feel really excited, but not sure why either. Gosh this is so confusing. To anyone who may read this blog, I guess the reason for this post is to get it out there. The fact that I cannot keep going the way I am going!!! I am not doing anything bad or living a double life or anything rediculous like that, I just simply have not been giving it my all. I guess the term for it is lukewarm. That's it. That's what I feel. If I were God, I would want to spit me out too (no, I didnt just call myself God, I was just using it as an example...). I have never thought of the way I am living as lukewarm. That word brings to mind someone who loves Jesus at church but everywhere else is a terrible person, and someone who acts holy, but is really living in sin. Sure, I am not perfect, but I felt like I wasnt living like this. The fact of the matter is, being lukewarm simply means I am neither hot nor cold. The truth is, I am not hot (you know what I mean). I don't give Jesus everything, just the parts of my life I want to give Him. It is so humbling to realize this about myself. I suppose from the outside it may not look like this is my reality, but it is. I have hid this sad fact behind pride. I lead a small group, lead worship, help lead the Dream Kids Ministry, and do a ton of other things... but that's all I do, is do them. I am passionate about Jesus, dont get me wrong, I just know that God wants to go so much deeper with me. Gosh dang it! It's like the never ending process of me finding out more of me that I havent given over to God. For me, becoming a lukewarm christian begins when I find something in me that I hadnt known about, and then after finding it, choosing not to give it to God. I then become god over my life. Sorry if this is confusing, its sorta just coming out... I know God has my where he does for a reason and I am so thankful for that. He has shown me so much about myself since CLC started, and I just need to give those things over to Him. He created me. He knows the deepest part of me. He knows my secrets. He knows me better than I know myself.
I guess all I can do for now is rely on His grace, knowing that this is a journey and I can't get there over night... man I wish I could. I dont like being wrong, but I just am, and God is right.

Giving it all over,


New Year's Eve, Oh My Gosh!

Wow, what a night! This year CLC and some other people went out to Brad's house in Lapine for a New Year's Eve party... and it was a freakin' cool party! We played tons of games, Rock Band, pool, ping pong, and did a whole bunch of other shenanigans! Here are some pictures of the night, hope you enjoy them!
The next morning, we were so awake!
Our team came in last place after all the games, so we got grills!

Dustin and his cool diaper :)
I got a a silly string hat...
Dustin and his cool diaper again!
Thomas and his cool diaper
Sabrina did the donut eating contest
Then people drew each other with their mouths

The guys got their make-up done... it was cool :)

Dustin... this is one of the many faces of the night, he wont let me show the others!

Andrea... I love her
Lisa played Rock Band, she is so hard core

Andrea being hard core....
People playing pool
Thomas was way into Rock Band too :)
Brittany and Sabrina
Andrea again :)

We had so much fun! You missed out if you weren't there. All I can say is that it will be a hard party to beat, so CLC friends, start thinking of ideas!!!

Happy New Year Everyone!