Forgetfulness

Today God showed me something. It is very important to me.

"The mountains tremble and quake before Him and the hills melt away, and the earth is upheaved at His presence - yes, the world and all that dwell in it." -nahum1:5

I'm just gonna get real raw and honest here: I have been making it about me, and by it, I mean life. I had forgotten that it is all about God. I know this is a simple and almost cliche thing that we all hear all the time. "It's all about God" I hear it 3 gazillion times a day. Today as I sat reading my bible in between services God spoke to me, He showed me something, He told me something...

"I love you, but what about Me? Do you love me? Have you forgotten who I Am? I miss the times with you where you trembled and quaked and melted before My Presence. The mountains and hills fear me, that's nothing... I want you to fear me."

I sat there thinking, "Why am I so... ahhhh!" I was dissapointed in myself. I had to face myself, my hearts' condition. Time and time again I have said, "God, take all of me... take my heart, my mind, will and emotions..." I have said it all, but have I done it all?

God reminded me of my forgetfulness. My failure to remember who my God Is. He can freaking make the earth upheave because of His presence! I had become numb to His presence. Weariness can take a tole on a person... I know that first hand. But God reminded me that HE does not become weary, and that He is always right beside me. I can lean on Him, in fact, I'm supposed to.

God is good. Even though today I was dissapointed in myself, God wasn't. He loves me. It's hard for me to comprehend that my failures and weaknesses open the door for God to be strong and victorious and loving towards me. It's a humbling path to run.

Today I remembered. I sacrificed my forgetfulness at His feet. It felt really good, but more than that, I know that God was singing over me the whole way, He was dancing all around me. I felt Him. It was more important to me than anyone could probably ever know.



Thanks for letting me be very honest with you. Sometimes God lets us bite the dust so that we can remember. All I know is that the dust is sweet to taste when I am with my God. Thank you God...

S.O.S. !!!

If anyone knows of someone who wants to sell their car for cheep, or if they even want to give it away please let me know !!! we currently have no working cars... it kinda sucks. I know that God will provide though, so I'm not stressing :) Thanks friends, be praying!

Finally, some pictures !

As I promised, here are some pictures from my vacation... enjoy them! (also check out Caleb and Ashley's blog for other pictures that they should be posting)

These first pictures are from the Tea House that we went to... they had some pretty cool hats :)











These pictures are from when we went shopping in Boise- WE HAD A BLAST!











There were these walls of shoes.... I Know.




We had so much fun... thank you Caleb, Ashley, and Ky for your hospitality and for blessing us! We love you guys :)

Mystery vacation!

Well, it's been over a month since my last post... sadly its not because of busy-ness or crazy schedules, but because I have had nothing much to post.
But, I am now in Idaho visiting some pretty cool people! We left Thursday morning to go on our "mystery" vacation, ( i actually knew where we were going ) and arrived Thursday at 1pm. It was a good drive, besides the boringness. :) We have spent the first couple of days at the Roaring Springs Water Park in Meridian with Ky... and can I just say that we had a blast. The first day at the water park was amazing! There were tons of really cool slides and it felt nice in the heat to get to go into the water. I think my favorite part was the wave pool... it was kinda like the ocean but in a pool :) The next day at the water park was just me and my sisters. Sadly this day wasnt as good because I scalded my feet on the pavement in this first 10 minutes so it kinda hurt to walk. Then we came back to Caleb and Ashley's house. My family and Ky went to the bike races and I had some amazing Jesus time while I had the time to myself. Lately, God has been giving me some very significant words about this next season of my life. Here are a few that he has spoken to me right out of my daily devotions:

Hosea 2:14-15, 19-20 (all amplified version)
"Therefore, behold, I will allure her and bring her into the wilderness, and I will speak tenderly and to her heart. There I will give her her vineyards and make the valley of Achor (troubling) to be for her a door of hope and expectation. And she shall sing there and respond as in the days of her youth and as at the time when she came up out of the land of Egypt... And i will betroth you to me in righteousness and justice, in steadfast love, and in mercy. I will even betroth you to me in stability and in faithfulness, and you shall know (recognize, be acquainted with, appreciate, give heed to and cherish) the Lord."

Hosea 6:3
"Yes, let us know (recognize, be acquainted with, and understand) Him; let us be zealous to know the Lord. His going forth is prepared and certain as the dawn, and He will come to us as the heavy rain, as the latter rain that waters the earth."

Hosea 10:12
"Sow for yourselves according to righteousness (uprightness and right standing with God); reap according to mercy and loving-kindness. Break up your uncultivated ground, for it is time to seek the Lord, to inquire for and of Him, and to require His favor, til He comes and teaches you righteousness and rains His righteous gift of salvation upon you."

Isaiah 30:21-23a
"And your ears will hear a word behind you, saying, This is the Way; walk in it, when you turn to the right hand, and when you turn to the left hand. Then you will defile your carved images overlaid with silver and your molten images plated with gold; your will cast them away as a filthy blood-stained cloth, and you will say to them, Be gone! Then He will give you rain for the seed with which you sow the soil..."

Isaiah 33:5-6
"The Lord is exalted, for He dwells on high; He will fill Zion with justice and righteousness (moral and spiritual rectitude in every area and relation). And there shall be stability in your times, an abundance of salvation, wisdom and knowledge; the reverent fear and worship of the Lord is your treasure and His."

Jesus is truly amazing, He is always there for me, and His words are so timely... I LOVE IT! These words are really reassuring to me. Its kinda not the most easiest thing to trust that God will provide over and abundantly for you not only in the physical realm, but in the spiritual realm too. I know that God has some really amazing things in store for me if I will be faithful to search them out... I love that my fear and worship of the Lord will be my treasure and His :)

So back to the whole vacation thing, today we went to Family Life Church with Caleb and Ashley. It was pretty cool :) Worship was amazing! It was like an hour and half long, or something like that... Jesus was for sure there. Now I am sitting here blogging to all you all. I might be coming home this tuesday, but if not, i might be staying for the NXT's summer camp- and thats what i really want to do. If i do that, then i wont be home for another two weeks. Sorry to all of you who arent having as much fun as me :) pictures to come soon, hopefully!

GRADUATION!

So, after much anticipation and many stressed out months, I am finally a high school Graduate! PRAISE THE LORD! I will be posting pictures soon... Thanks to all of you guys who have supported me through high shcool :) All that is left to say is, "hello Freedom!"

My life is CRAZY!!!

oh my Goodness! Time has flown! I am graduating in like a month and 14 days... Right now, my life is filled with tons of stress in that I have all of that senior stuff to do, they probably couldnt make it any harder to graduate...gosh! Though my life is crazy right now, God has a change in season for me and I am very excited. As stated above, I will soon be graduating (praise the Lord!)and then right after that I will be leaving for mexico for 2 weeks for our missions trip. God is going to move big down there and I am sooooo excited. In the meantime I will need to get a job so that i can save up as much money as possable, because so far my savings account is $0 and i need over 2000 dollars by september. Yes, it is true. I am going to do CLC next year! I cant wait for God to move mightly in my life. He is speaking to me so much, but i know that next year will be a huge and essential part to me growing in Jesus. I will have my last summer camp this year as a student :( sad i know but i know so much is going to happen and it will be like summer camp everyday... which is really great! I will be moving out at the end of August into a host home (with, who? idk) but i think i am ready to be independant, my mom has raised me well! AAHHHH!!! so much! God is so good! there, that is my current life update, without overwhelming you :) pictures of fun stuff to come later. love you guys!

The "I missed GU" blessing...

So I have no cool pictures to go with this post but I figured that I would tell you about what God did in my life on the weekend I missed GU...

I woke up thursday morning to my mom saying that school had been cancelled due to the weather... YAH! that was my first reaction. But then i realized that it was probably a bad thing... "wasnt i supposed to be going to GU today?" OH CRAP! Soon there after i learned that the church decided that it was too dangerous for us to travel the pass (and that the passes were closed, anyways...). My weekend had been ruined. or so i thought.

To make a long chain of events short, we sent out a ton of texts and soon, about 8 girls were over at our house. We decided to make the best of our worst situation.

We ended up having an amazing worship time, followed by an amazing word from Cassie (by the way, to whoever this might concern, she needs to speak in 180 sometime...), and then we prayed it up until 1 in the morning. Jesus totally showed up!

Then we had a sleepover...that was fun :)

Then the next evening, i joined a group of kids at Jordan Wolfes Dad's shop (yah) and we worshiped God... I think my face fell off... it was that indescribable.

And then, to top it off, Student Leadership was really good...

GOD SPOKE SO MUCH TO ME:

"Get out of your box and wake up to the people who are dying around you"
"Your relationship with me has been hitting a wall because you havent been honest wiht me"
"Worship what you feel, instead of what you think i want to hear..."
"I love you so much"
"My presence is all that you need"
"You are anointed to lead worhsip" (I know, I nearly peed my pants.)
"It is ok to cry"
"You are a prophetess in training"
"I will and can use you"

I cant really list everything because it would take forever... but because I decided to make something of my time, instead of moping around, God totally showed up. Through others, and his still small voice, God told me thing i had been waiting for years to hear.

So here is the practical point of this... What made that weekend different than any other. If i commit to seek God in that same desperation, all the time, what would happent to my life? God is who he is, no matter where I am geographically, emotionally, spiritually, physically, or mentally. HE IS ALWAYS FAITHFUL TO DO WHAT HE SAID HE WILL DO!

To wrap it up, Jesus Rocks my socks off!

Here I come 2008!

2007 has been a completely amazing year... God has done so much in my life and in the lives around me. SO, here's a recap of the year:

Continued in Student Leadership- the program which has really opened me up to God and his purposes

Generation Unleashed-life changing conference in Portland

40 day media fast-even more life changing :)After GU, God asked me to commit all of my free time to him, so I did. He definitely showed up...

Winter Camp (Truth)-God gears me up for the rest of the school year and I break free of some strongholds!

2nd Semester- God divinely sets up appointments for me to share my faith and I got to join a program where I mentor students with disabilities, where I mentored a girl named shelley, who was blind and autistic, and i got to share my faith with her and pray with her!

Ignite the Night-the outreach the Student Leadership planned... all I can say is that we prayed for God to have his hand in it and direct it, and He did! We planned to have it at mckay park, but we got washed out by a hurricane... literally! We moved it to 180 and God totally used our obedience and we saw salvation! AMEN!!!

Moved- We moved away from my dad and into an appartment, which has been hard but God has really grown and matured me...

SUMMER TIME! -I served at the church every monday and wednesday (volunteered, as the school would say) and got school credit in the mean-time.

Student Leadership Graduation- One of the most awesome times... I shared a little about what God had done in my life over that past year and it was truly amazing to hear what others said about the year too.

Summer Camp- Unbelievable! I gave so much to God and got rid of so much junk in my life. I gave my fear back to God, because my way of doing things wasnt working and He totally gave me grace to start new. HE IS AMAZING!!!

School year 2007(thus far...)-Continued in Mentor program and have been loving on kids who dont neccesarily get the love of Christ from anyone... it has been a blast! We have gone, as a group, to the beach and to portland, and each trip has been a great opportunity to get to know them more... i love it!

Student Leadership 2007/2008- started SL again, been really great! gearing up for I heart lapine and GU #2 !!!!

Encounter!- SL had their own encounter with God! I know for sure that i heard him speak, and yet again, i gave more junk to him and let go of some things... (the process never seems to end!) :)

Relationships- God has shown me the relationships that i need to work on... I really had to humble myself and not be so afraid of what people think of me. I cant work on my relationships if i wont step out of the boat...


God has done so much in my life, as you can see :) and God has so much more planned in 2008... I am graduating this year and I am hopefully starting the program Cascade Life Commission, at westside church! I cant wait to see what God will do in this next year... all I can do is be expectant!

Long time, no see ... :)

So it has been over a month, since my last update... if anyone even reads my blog in the first place, and if you want to know why, here is my reason. I AM STINKIN' BUSY!!! thats my only reason. SO! with that out of the way, here is a random, hilarious video that i recomend watching:

the essence...

The relaxation of thanksgiving break is wonderful. Today I stayed in my pj's all day, watched movies, cleaned, ate, and listened to kenny g christmas... i am in heaven :)

Here is a little inspirational poem i wrote...

cinnamon and ginger

nutmeg and pumpkin spice

this is the taste of the season

snowflakes and frozen ponds

fireplaces and candles

this is the sight of the season

crunchy snow and sniffling noses

crackling wood and laughter

this is the sound of the season

roasted coffee and roasted turkey

peppermint and pine trees

this is the smell of the season

frozen fingers and wet gloves

soft scarves and wooly hats

this is the feeling of the season

comfort and joy

love and peace

this is the essence of the season